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I was born Jonathon A...steel. I am a Leo, born under the sign of the lion and I was raised in a ...lower middle class family with only one brother Michael whom I love ...kname was Red which I ...ld never understand why because his hair wa...brother Little Red. I should have known from the first time when I ...al connection, that I just didn't fit in to my ...her's plans. And as I grew older the cons...image of perfection in my ...m, my brother could do no wrong and I became The ...l 'black sheep' and I soon figured out th...t mix. The beatings I received became mor... to the point where I would ask my father "Am I the orphaned son ..."? But oddly enough I worshipped the grou...My brother and I were a strange mixt...m the same parents. I ...he same father, but I always dismissed th...o encourage me. For I was born ... often told me when I was born an angel f...one". And I had no idea what 'The one' was, but as I grew older I began to ...ty, very pretty and I would often wonder,...ics that many times in my life I would ...look back on in bewilderment and the women I sought after when I was older ...would be nothing like her. In the pain of youth, ...uld manifest itself in many ways; depressi... control everything I did or was to become. I shall explain ...later in the story about them which I call my Four Doors ...one place I could go to see inside myself, to find love, in an otherwise ...ess household where I could be great, where I could be anything o...anyone I wanted to be - one hundred percent pure escapism until I ...ver dream, at least in my case - all excep...d by a drunk driver in a head-on collision. He died instantly. I ... agony was so great I ...moment on, nothing seemed to matter, e...ear after his death I roamed the streets in a fog barely ...anything or anyone. I discovered alcohol,...and in general a life I had never known whi... And it was then as I staggered through a...town city street in one of my drunken rages I stumbled across a s...music shop and in the window stood th...string. It was like I'd known ...I soon found it was the only way I could truly express...r Doors Of Doom and I found myself going ...rite themselves and I knew ...my destiny was in my music but I was going to have t...backwards town I was in if I was ever going to succeed. I was 16 going ...nowhere and the only thing my parents knew was 'live, work, die. ' And if I ...g to happen to me - I was gonna ...die. So I ran away to the big...to finally live and do my music without th...persecution I had known for so long. I hitchhiked all the ...suitcase in one hand and my guitar in the other and as I stood at the edge ...new home the place I would call the 'Arena Of Pleasure'. I lived and ...struggled in the arena for two years trying to get a break in music and ...ord and that's when I ran across a deligh...ck over more people in the recording industry then he ever could in a ...companies in the world. The music business to Charlie was nothing more ...ie. And through him I learned everything I needed to know ...ess and even things I didn't want to know...ime was calling and I was on my way. He i...nd kicked it square in the ass. ...e of my first album I was sitting on the steps in ...me if I would like my fortune read and I had never had it done so I was ... tell me of my past in which she went into...tes she stopped and I wanted to know of m...ing vision of where I was going. I told her that I wanted a ...wealth and fame and in the cards she saw a...the King of Mercy". I asked her if