I was born Jonathon A...steel. I am a Leo, born under the sign of the lion and I was raised in a ...rother Michael whom I love ...kname was Red which I ...brother Little Red. I should have known from the first time when I ...al connection, that I just didn't fit in to my ...her's plans. And as I grew older the cons...brother could do no wrong and I became The ...l 'black sheep' and I soon figured out th...red and black don't mix. The beatings I received became mor... to the point where I would ask my father "Am I the orphaned son ..."? But oddly enough I worshipped the grou...My brother and I were a strange mixt...m the same parents. I ...he same father, but I always dismissed th...idea as my mother was fa...s best to encourage me. For I was born ...w it. He often told me when I was born an angel f... bed and christened me with a magic wand a...one". And I had no idea what 'The one' was, but as I grew older I began to ...ty, very pretty and I would often wonder,...ny times in my life I would ...rment and the women I sought after when I was older ... control everything I did or was to become. I shall explain ...later in the story about them which I call my Four Doors ...one place I could go to see ins...ess household where I could be great, where I could be anything o...anyone I wanted to be - one hundred percent pure escapism until I ... He died instantly. I ...couldn't even bring myself to go to his funeral. My agony was so great I ...just couldn't come face to face w...nts' resentment for me even more. But from...ear after his death I roamed the streets ...ious of anything or anyone. I discovered alcohol,...d in general a life I had never known whi... And it was then as I staggered through a...of my drunken rages I stumbled across a s...string. It was like I'd known ...I soon found it was the only way I could truly express...r Doors Of Doom and I found myself going ...rite themselves and I knew ...was in my music but I was going to have to get out of this ...backwards town I was in if I was ever going to succeed. I was 16 going ...work, die. ' And if I ... going to happen to me - I was gonna ...die. So I ran away to the big...and a chance for me to finally live and...persecution I had known for so long. I hitchhiked all the ...in the other and as I stood at the edge ...new home the place I would call the 'Arena Of Pleasure'. I lived and ...two years trying to get a break in music an...ord and that's when I ran across a deligh...ie. And through him I learned everything I needed to know ...about the music business and even things I didn't want to know. He said he...could make me a star, one of the ...ime was calling and I was on my way. He introduced me to an ...e of my first album I was sitting on the ...me if I would like my fortune read and I had never had it done so I was ...to tell me of my past in which she went into great detail about the pain ...but after about ten minutes she stopped and I wanted to know of m...e spoke. She showed me a very ...ing vision of where I was going. I told her that I wanted a ...looked at me and said "Be carefu...the King of Mercy". I asked her if