Every now and then I think about you ...of you and into me, I'll make it ...hen you're leaving, I'm breathing ...of me and into you, I feel sick ...I feel sick ...Now that you're leaving ...But I am the reason ...That I will stay alive ...Every now and then I dream about you ...I've lost the feeling...I will never be dependent ... every now and then I think about you ...Every now and then I know it's over ...Now that you're leaving ...But I am the reason ...That I will stay alive ...Cause I'm not dying ...No I'm not dying

I wish I had one good reason why...I should stay...How'd I get myself...I wish had qualities ...Instead I got lunacy...I wish I could fit myself in...I wish I had a different fac...I wish I had one good reason why...I should stay...How'd I get myself...I wish my life was a ...Why am I always so greedy?...Wish I looked just like Ch...I know I never will...I know I never will...I wish my life was no...I wish I had one good reason why...I should stay...How'd I get myself...I wish I could apologize...Wish I could look you in t...And tell you that I never lie...And wish that I could stop the crie...Where I wanna stay...I wish my life was a ...Why am I always so greedy?...Wish I looked just like Ch...I know I never will...I know I never will...I wish my life was no...I wish I didn't smoke so man...Wish I had blond hair...Wish I had green eyes...things about myself that I despise...hings about my life that I despise...So many things that I despise...So many things that I despise...Helps that I was in this long, d...Helps that I was in this long, d...Helps that I was in this long, d...Helps that I was in this long, d

e ground everything I own ...I lost everything I had I'm not even mad (nya...Losing everyone I love will make me sad (nyaah)...You will not take my mind ...You will not take what's min...You think I owe it to you (Fiel...This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah.....ake it away nothing will change ...I will still feel the same...Am I being tortured time will only tell ...Am I insane (nyaah) or am I in hell ...ve your own life no reason to rebel (nyaah) ...money more problems that ain't no lie ...ou take it all away I rather scream bye ...Your not alone wipe that tear from your eye ...I can't wait to die (...I wouldn't be alive (...But I've had a rough life drugs will make ... at the bright side I'm trying to stay (nyaah) ...Sane I would never take my...Depression and pain that's just part of life...You're here for a reason not to be depressed

e ground everything I own ...I lost everything I had I'm not even mad (nya...Losing everyone I love will make me sad (nyaah)...You will not take my mind...You will not take what's min...You think I owe it to you (Fiel...This is everything I do (Fieldy: nyaah.....ake it away nothing will change...I will still feel the same...Am I being tortured time will only tell ...Am I insane (nyaah) or am I in hell ...ve your own life no reason to rebel (nyaah)...money more problems that ain't no lie ...ou take it all away I rather scream bye ...Your not alone wipe that tear from your eye ...I can't wait to die (...I wouldn't be alive (...But I've had a rough life drugs will make ... at the bright side I'm trying to stay (nyaah)...Sane I would never take my...Depression and pain that's just part of life...You're here for a reason not to be depressed

Fans I enlist and opponents I dismiss ...I'm causin heavy brea...I'm not Starvin Marvin, but I get Even Steven ...I'm a walkin Fort Kno...All Sucker DJ's will self-destruct ...Polo and G Rap, we will go real far ...And that's why we're down wi...I have the greatest reputation for rhymes that I craft ...stroyin all rappers that step in my path ...Cause I release lyrics as i...tart trainin, cause I be remainin ...The rhymes that I state will stay in your brain and ...You'll keep dancin, I'm self-enhancin ...Ears will respond to what I'm creatin ...I'll be infiltratin with the rhymes I'm articulatin ...Don't say I'm wack, that's not a fact ...I could never get bus...Stay in your spot before...I'm not goin for it, ...doesn't start until I enter the place ...Now that you know me, why do...All the respect that you owe me ...Everywhere I go I get a compliment ...I guess it's the glamour that I present ...earance and the way I rap ...I know they're in love with the way I perform ...Because I bring a sunshiny da...my voice, they know I'm their choice ...ver reject anything I say ...nd believe it cause I don't play ...When I rock upon the mic I'm bound to go far ...Never say a rhyme that's less than hoopin ...ueens are the girls I'm scoopin ...sight, to the touch I'm scorchin ...Rhymes so def that they're worth a for...I sit and write a rhyme, when I'm done get blunted ... time for me to go, I'm at the end of my ...MC Shan and I'm down with the Jui...oke up one morning, I became an MC ...Cause if I ever caught a biter I will enforce ...Cause I'm the chief executive, that means I'm boss ...Any MC I'll admonish on and ... the mic in my hand I mutilate MC's ...e Projects is where I'm from ...And I'm a (Juice Crew All...Crew Allstar is who I be ...fies for everything that I do ...And that's the reason why I'm here just to tell...Why I'm a Juice Crew Allstar, best believe I am the best ...use ya best believe I'm as strong as dope...ck out all the MC's that is in my way ...annot qualify cause I am Shanté ...y rhymes are so def that they call them trag...You best believe that the things I say ...ock and shock cause I'm Shanté ...I came to tell you now just who I be ...How I rock the place so v...Cause I'm a (Juice Crew All

I'm growing out my hair like it was when I was single ...It was longer than I'd known you ...I had no money then. I had no worries then...I just feel like I am dying ...I would start an argu...here is always good reason for your silence ...So I fix your plate and I stay out of the way ...And you will stay like that forever ...I'm a bill you pay. I'm a contract you ca...And it's like I'm under water ...I just go up and up but I don't ever reach th...I guess it all depend...That's what I am. ...That's it.

[Verse#1:] One day I was feelin' low dow...) Bad thoughts like I won't be around ...Was thinkin') Maybe I should get out of t...Maybe 'cause it was I didn't lose weight ... (I thought that) I had failed and I felt so ashamed ...on't you dare think that way" ... Closed my eyes and I heard a voice say ...So from now on when I hear that voice say ... (Stand up) I'm on my feet, and I'm showin' my face ... (I will be) Strong and faithful, oh I will survive ... (I will be) Honest to me, I will try even when I cry ... (I will be) Humble, but fea...) Life for granted, I'll live everyday li... (I will make) Lemonade even when lemons is all I have ... (I will pay) All my dues an...rs test me, focused I will stay ... (I will just) Close my eyes and hear that voice say ...ength, the voice of reason ...nues, but this time I am guided by the voice...Of love, every step that I take ...And every challenge that I face, and its says

I'm alive and well ...The last time I fell ...I broke down to nothi...You know that I believe I should be good as g...But still I stay just a little bit l...The only reason why I am holding on ...I all but gave up ...My mind was made up I had tried my last ...You know that I believe I should be good as g...But still I stay just a little bit l...The only reason why I am holding on .......Than our will to run ...Finds the will to stay in everyone ...You know that I believe I should be good as g...But still I stay just a little bit l...The only reason why I am holding on

10 good reasons to stay alive ...10 good reasons that I can't find ...Oh give me a reason to be beautiful ...Oh give me one reason to be beautiful ...Oh and everything I am ...I live my life in rui...I squashed the blosso...Oh, give me a reason to be beautiful ...Oh, and I will make myself so beau...Oh, and everything I am ...I swear I do, I fit right in ...I cannot breathe ...I swear, I said, I fit right in ...I fit right in your p...I cannot breathe ...Give me a reason to be beautiful ...I'll give you my body...Oh, and everything I am will be bought ...Oh, and everything I am will turn hard ...I was there all the t...And I weep at your feet

Then you choose to stay ...I walk the edge and ...I open all my doors ...I am no martyr ...You give me reason ...I try harder ...And I wait ...I hear a soft noise l...That blows through, ...I open all my doors ...I am no martyr ...You give me reason ...I try harder ...And I wait ...I cannot stay ...Will it be faith ...I am no martyr ...You give me reason ...I try harder ...And I wait

What am I to you?...What am I to do?...Didn't stay for long;...One thing I will always remember....And for no reason why,...Perhaps we will again,...That I am close behind;...Wherever you may go I will follow...., whispering leaves will call your name;...ntle, sighing winds will do the same....And for no reason why,..., whispering leaves will call your name;...ntle, sighing winds will do the same....And for no reason why,

You know what I'm sayin' ...And now I got you so mad it h...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I try to fall and get...That without you I would ...You know I'm here alone ...I'm lonely and so sad...Each day I cry ...I only cry for you, d...I live for you ...I stay adore you ...I'm waitin' for you ...I'm lonely for you ...I never thought I'd feel this way ...The one I love has caused me ...I'm waking up everyday hoping the sun will shine ...The rain will go away ...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...But I told you not once ...I told you more than ...That you would realize that I am everything you're g...New girl out there, will never ever love you...And I did the sacrifices ...Cause I can't continue to g...I never thought I'd feel this way ...The one I love has caused me ...I'm waking up everyday hoping the sun will shine ...The rain will go away ...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I know I deserve better ...I just wanna earn che...I wish I'd learn never trust what I say when I burn letters of lov...I could see you as my...But not me, baby, I'm sorry you gotta g...It's like I'm sitting in a desert and I'm waitin' for it to...I'd rather be wrong t...I'll get to pickin' u...I've got to pick up t...r, for whatever the reason ...I still deserve bette...I've got to pick up t...), for whatever the reason (yeah) ...I still deserve bette

You'd know that I exist ...I'm waiting to be kis...Each time that you walk by ...I feel my heart would...And then I think about ...The pain I'd have to take ...You'd be the only reason ...That I'm leaving town ...You'd be the only reason ...Why I'd come back ...Why I'd come back ...And maybe stay ...If I could find out ...You'd be the only reason ...That I'm leaving town ...You'd be the only reason ...Why I'd come back ...Why I'd come back ...And maybe stay ...If I could find out ...So, I'll just pretend ...That you will look my way ...And I am hoping ...That you'll come to me a

What I'm going do, what I'm going be...If I have to please you and I don't please me...I got too many choice...What I'm going do, what I'm going be...If I have to please you and I don't please me...I got too many choice...I've been so many places, still I don't know where I want to be...nging, rearranging, I see things...I gotta go, don't wan...But I want you to know before I go, that baby, we could've h...Recently, I've been talking to ...I answer back, thinking 'I ain't supposed to answer that'...Is that a fact? Am I losing it for what I said?...I can't remember 'cause I'm scared, I don't look back... hell behind me and I ain't trying get to...I know you feel me, s...It'd help us stay sane, for the time ...I'm on top of the wor...next on the set but I check myself quick...Flashing cash that like ? on ass...I swore to God it was, but I lie...I try to stay clean but clocking ...That's why B.T. banging now, that's why bigets is sla... don't know how, to stay sane in this game...And while I got a couple bitche...But I choke, it ain't nob...akes in disguise so I fear for 'em...I wake up early in th... to being happy, so I live with smiles an...I keep it real for those that choose to learn gam...I'd probably blast my...I'm going crazy out here, God help me if you will...I try to keep it real...But still, I got too many choice...ever fall without a reason from God...You will never fall without a reason from God

manner of speaking that truly reflected his mood. "This is a vacuum. There is no air in this room. Despair is no fun anymore. Nihilism knocked three times on the ceiling, but the rosy fingers of dawn always insterted themselves in the nose of unfulfilled promises. Angels sang Heysanna Hosanna. Paralyzed prima-donnas danced in the streets all day, but when the darkness came, everybody went home. I was ready- everyone else was asleep. And while it may have been a relief to see that I was right all along, here I am still: alone and tr..."And I can turn it all around, and laugh at it and laugh at myself; I can laugh louder than the walls, the halls, the waterfalls, louder than Charles de Gaul or Fulton Mall, but I don't know what I'm laughing at. I don't know just what I think is so goddman funny. I don't know why I don't just shut up and give up and lay down and die. What do I have to complain about anyway," Ed asked his Picasso, "I'm a millionaire!"! This wasn't actually true. Ed's picasso was an obvious forgery, his three Rothkos had just been singled out in an article in ARTFORUM entitled "The three most insignificant paintings of Mark Rothko," and his Barbara Kruegers had been irreparably damaged by Rein Sanction and a few other bands from Gainsville that refused to acknowle...adkill coffee table that he had purchased when times had seem slightly less bleak, "Come to think of it, not only does art have no intrinsic value, but my collection has no extrinsic value either. I know I'm not a millionaire, but that's no reason to complain. There is no reason to complain. There is no reason to do anything. I don't believe in reason, objective reality, or collective farming. I don't believe in public speaking, which is another reason why I'm here alone. I don't believe in life or death. I would kill myself, but I don't believe in suicide." Ed put on a red shirt and took a quick walk around the block while whistling softly to himself. He reentered his apartment screaming. "There is no life on this planet! Jehovah-One replaced all life with machinery five centuries ago. The so-called industrial revolution was just another hoax and we all fell for it, 'cause we were all programmed to. Even I fell for it, I believe in the steam engine, even though I don't believe in anything. Logical inconsistancy is the Mr.Bubble I bathe in each and every evening, except yesterday evening, when I rollerbladed over to the masonic temple to play pinochle with Pope John Paul the First. I really had no choice in the matter." "Ed certainly could go on and on, and he did, and he would, and he will, until you or I or somebody does something aobut it." Senator Sterno of Louisiana announced over closed circuit television. "And as long as he continues to pontificate pointlessly, I will do nothing." Ed wal..."I've had it!" he sang. "I've had it with puns, aliteration, russian literature, italian neo-realism, meaningless cross references and laundry lists of nonsense. I shall drive without a license, without clothing, without direction and if I make it to Arkansas fine, and if I'm running late, If I'm running a numbers game, it doesn't matter. I shall keep on running, yes This is the answer. This is the ending. I shall keep running, because a body in motion tends to stay emotional, and its